I'm past my mid-20s and it scares me so much. I act like a kid sometimes most of the times, still feeling young and never thinking of getting out of that mentality. Haha! I know this isn't right. I need to grow up as what the other side of my brain always shouts back at me but ugh, I can't. I'm afraid of responsibility or just the mere fact that I am getting old. Every time I dozed off the reality, I'm always thinking of what have I done in my past 20+ yrs of life. Heck, that's a long time. Nothing grand comes up. I always think that I wasted those precious years. I am not sure. I can't track it. I am a self-confessed forgetful person, read: messy minded person. But one thing that makes me proud of is, I did travel, a LOT and that, I think, meets my equilibrium with regrets.
Comfort Zones. These two words bring me chills. I am always trap. Afraid of letting go and too scared to move. I am always stuck. This has always been my shadow. I have a love and hate relationship on what I do, afraid of changes and insist on holding on but makes me bored most of the time. I'm an introvert, I admit it, or maybe the most appropriate word is territorial. Most people thought that I am very much friendly. But nah, I always feel indifferent around new people especially new environment. This is the reason, I'm sure, of why I'm always stuck. Once I find and settle with a zone that brings me so much comfort, I find it hard, really hard, to let go.
I always wish to be in another job than what I have now but I can't (won't budge) leave my current work.
I wanted to try new hobby but 'till now I just enjoy it through write-ups, blog posts and other persons' stories.
Looking forward meeting new people but most of the time backs out last minute whenever someone asked me to join new company.
Wishing and seeking love but turns down every guy without considering that he might be the one.
Or simply waiting for that someone that caught my eye whose not at all interested in me.
Longing for adventures but still ends up sleeping, watching and bumming.
My life is full of irony and I blame it on me being comfortable on my current zone. The horror of my life. The places that kept me stuck. But I'm seriously trying and working on this. Step by step. Every day. Gaining courage. Planning. Making it my current life goal. Iwant need to be braver. Take risks. Go to the place where I want to go. And be whom I always wanted to be.
If maybe someone care to read this entry, I urge you to please be brave and confident. Live your life to the fullest. Take risks. Don't be afraid of committing mistakes, that's very human-like plus you'll learn, a lot! Act as the person you always wanted to be. Don't ever restrict or put boundaries on what you can do and where you can go. Life is full of challenges. That's a cliche. So live up to it. Face it head on and be happy no matter what the outcome is. After all, at the end of the day, you'll always be a winner.
I'm a daydreamer. So much that sometimes I dozed off completely and forgot that I still need to face reality. There's nothing wrong in daydreaming but it's better, best, to materialize what you always daydream. Don't let your dayDREAMS be always a fantasy, make it real. I bet that it'll be sweet.
Live life happily and full of smiles. You don't want to be a lousy grandma/grandpa that don't have interesting stories, right? :)
Comfort Zones. These two words bring me chills. I am always trap. Afraid of letting go and too scared to move. I am always stuck. This has always been my shadow. I have a love and hate relationship on what I do, afraid of changes and insist on holding on but makes me bored most of the time. I'm an introvert, I admit it, or maybe the most appropriate word is territorial. Most people thought that I am very much friendly. But nah, I always feel indifferent around new people especially new environment. This is the reason, I'm sure, of why I'm always stuck. Once I find and settle with a zone that brings me so much comfort, I find it hard, really hard, to let go.
I always wish to be in another job than what I have now but I can't (won't budge) leave my current work.
I wanted to try new hobby but 'till now I just enjoy it through write-ups, blog posts and other persons' stories.
Looking forward meeting new people but most of the time backs out last minute whenever someone asked me to join new company.
Wishing and seeking love but turns down every guy without considering that he might be the one.
Or simply waiting for that someone that caught my eye whose not at all interested in me.
Longing for adventures but still ends up sleeping, watching and bumming.
My life is full of irony and I blame it on me being comfortable on my current zone. The horror of my life. The places that kept me stuck. But I'm seriously trying and working on this. Step by step. Every day. Gaining courage. Planning. Making it my current life goal. I
If maybe someone care to read this entry, I urge you to please be brave and confident. Live your life to the fullest. Take risks. Don't be afraid of committing mistakes, that's very human-like plus you'll learn, a lot! Act as the person you always wanted to be. Don't ever restrict or put boundaries on what you can do and where you can go. Life is full of challenges. That's a cliche. So live up to it. Face it head on and be happy no matter what the outcome is. After all, at the end of the day, you'll always be a winner.
I'm a daydreamer. So much that sometimes I dozed off completely and forgot that I still need to face reality. There's nothing wrong in daydreaming but it's better, best, to materialize what you always daydream. Don't let your dayDREAMS be always a fantasy, make it real. I bet that it'll be sweet.
Live life happily and full of smiles. You don't want to be a lousy grandma/grandpa that don't have interesting stories, right? :)
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